Did you ever have a day, or week that felt so good it kind of erased a lot of bad in your life? Last week was one of those weeks for me. Since Thanksgiving I'd been feeling a little sorry for myself, and had lost a lot of confidence in my abilities as an artist, a friend, and just a person in general. A couple of small issues lead to a much bigger problem of self doubt. That is until last week, when something just clicked inside. I had two really good conversations filled with opportunity, spent some time creating in my studio, and ate a big meal with friends. Every day last week something small, and beautiful chipped away at my bitter fiscade. I think it was hope.
For the first time in a long time I have hope that the next six months might be better than the last, and that my life isn't as off track as I once imagined. I stay awake at night, not because I'm anxious for what life currently is, but inspired by what it could be. A week of this kind of living has done me a lifetime of good. Hope is a wild, uncontrollable thing, and once planted deep inside is is also very hard to uproot. I'm going to remain hopeful, and see where it takes me. How about you?
big kiss, bekuh
Good for you doll! You are amazing and though I know we all feel less than at times it is best to just think I am great in my own unique way and that way isn't for everyone. That perks me up at times of doubt. Also Hope is very powerful. It gives us the ability to look at today anew and set goals for the future.
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LOVED this!! So happy for the sunshine that has filled your soul. I can totally relate to the self-doubt - you're right...it's a silent killer. Amazing though, how therapeutic time with good friends, and time spent creatively can revive the soul!
ReplyDeleteAh this is such a lovely post!! Sometimes it takes me a few 'good days' filled with smiles and food and seeing my best friends to get my priorities back in order. To remember that it isn't all bad and there is hope for good things to come! x
ReplyDeleteOh Bekuh, I'm so happy to read this. Yes, hope is a very powerful thing and you only need a little bit to make everything better. I hope you have many more happy hopeful weeks.
ReplyDeleteLove this! I'm really happy to hear you are feeling better. I have also been feeling out of sorts for a few months, but recently, things have been on the up-and-up. It's amazing how small, lovely things can make such an enormous difference in life! :) All the best, and thanks for sharing!
ReplyDeleteIt's important to hope and have a belief. It would be just like the flowery photo you posted: colorful and sunny.
ReplyDeleteLove those small, encouraging moments in life. That has been happening to me ever since last week, just small moments with family and glimpses of hope in job hunting. Something finally clicked in me as well, it's hard to say. It's funny how things suddenly turn around after being low and desperate and hitting rock bottom.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you found something to put hope and encouragement in your life when you're feeling down!
ReplyDeleteIt's been one of those weeks in my home where life doesn't seem like it should, and decisions had to be made. We finally came to an agreement though, and everyone feels wonderful, and I couldn't be happier that things worked out smoothly.
I can't even tell you how much I connect with this. The past few weeks have brought surprising little changes, goodness & bravery into my life and have kind of pulled me out of a bad place of being really sad and doubtful all the time. And I can get down about things still pretty easily but once I remember just all the wonderful and good that has happened and is going on, it puts me in this positive mood and makes my heart happy. It is nice to be able to step back and see the beauty and good in our lives.
ReplyDeleteI'm so glad I found your blog!(Thanks to Lovely Lemon). This was beautifully written, and an inspiration. Thank you:)
ReplyDeleteYay for feeling inspired! So pleased that your self doubt is fading... I can relate to the constant questioning and evaluating of your own success/failures. It's a great feeling when you can step out of that way of thinking! It's quite clear that you are a lovely person and very talented and therefore deserve to feel great :) x
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