I'm Learning A Lot

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 I feel like my catch phrase this summer has been, "I'm learning a lot." And though I may be over using it just a little, it doesn't make it any less true. I've been rather retrospective lately and I've spent a lot of time evaluating what's important to me, and what I'm willing to let go for the sake of a better me. When we're faced with trials it's really easy to crawl into a corner and hide from them, but I'm trying to be more open, and accepting of failures and life's little (big) lessons. I've felt so vulnerable and free simultaneously in these last couple of weeks, thanks in large part to this space. In this spirit of openness and sharing I thought it would be fun to join in the "If You Really Knew Me," feature that has been floating around.

If you really knew me...

You would know that I need my alone time, and that though I love to socialize I have pretty strict limits as to the amount of time I like to be around people in the day to day. If we hang out with people for two days, I need at least a 24 hour break before we jump back into to more social commitments. Strange but true.

You'd find me really sarcastic and ornery to a fault.

You'd see that I am constantly over committing myself, but can't let go of any of them. I like to be busy all the time, and get bored incredibly easily. If I didn't have about 20 projects going on at once I'd probably be depressed and just find new projects to start to fill the gaps. Relaxing is not in my nature.

You'd know that I've always been a bit of an odd eater. As a kid I cried if my Mom made homestyle foods like mashed potatoes, but I'd eat cans of spinach and pickles in one sitting. Veggies have always been my thing I guess.

You'd find that I pace uncontrollably when we watch TV shows like Dexter and the Walking Dead. Something about highly stressful situations make me want to jump up and start moving. I do this when Ryan and I fight as well.

You would know that my family means more to me than anything else on earth. I feel incredibly guilty that I don't live close to my Dad and his family, and that I rarely get to see my Mom and hers. I have an intense devotion to them and would jump through fire for them without flinching. That being said I'm the worst correspondent and forget to call and send cards when I should even if I've been thinking about them non-stop.

You would know that I do not function on less than 7 hours of sleep, unless you want to call the dragon lady I transform into functioning. I also need at least one cup of coffee before talking to people or I may just strangle them in the morning. When traveling this rule applies as well.

Now some fun ones:
I think cheese is next to godliness, except American because that's not really cheese.
I giggle uncontrollably at Ron and Leslie when we watch Parks and Rec.
I like to immediately change in to PJs when I get home from work.
Food is sometimes the first and last thing I think about in a day.
I still kind of like skorts and wish they would come back in style.
I stopped riding bikes at 13 and only last October decided it was time to ride again.