Let it Go

I bought a flaking children's book years ago that had some incredible hand pressed illustrations inside. This is one of them. I thought the quote was appropriate for my mood and like Piper Tom I'll be happy when I'm rid of this adulthood madness.

Some of you may have noticed I've been a little moody in my blogging lately. I haven't been as upbeat and haven't posted with regularity like I did way back in March. I can give a million and one excuses for this but that's silly and you don't need them. So I'll leave it at that.

I do want to mention that lately I've let a lot of the fun slip out of my life and I think my blogging and my friendships are suffering because of it. I'm feeling particularly sluggish and I'm embarrassed to say I've been staying indoors a lot. It's summer time, I should be outside enjoying the warmth and basking in the couple of months that the sun shines way into the evening. I've forgotten what laughing really hard feels like and I can't even talk about the last time I created an original piece of art.

My defensive response is always, "Well I'm too busy. I work too much." But those are just covers for a deeper issue, I'm too busy trying to be something I'm not and my real passions are the only things I'm sacrificing. I hear older adults tell me all the time that it's because I've entered the "real world" but that's a horrible reality if the real world starts when you let go of passion and embrace monotonous routine and perceived responsibility. I refuse to let my life become automated. So I let go of routine and instead choose to remain a passionate idealist.

I'd rather be tired and fully alive thank you. big kiss, bekuh